Am tired of thinking let's put it down ....every time I would wake up in those times I only could think of programming using php.
For a period of time now I have been programming with php and mysql database using the xampp software. ...I thank God for this very day am able to do something productive...though nothing good just happen from nowhere I struggled even to midnight to learn this programming on my final year project.... I had an advantage the lecturers were on strike and so I have a privileged time to do my best in learning even a new idea... I tired and in struggles no going out to meet friends but job everyday I made sure I did take a move ....I tired not to loose anytime...it was at this time that I was trying my best also to cope up with an issue with my love Irene .... I was never in peace I thought I had married long earlier but everyday as it counts towards my finishing line the end of my course I am becoming stronger and even with gratitude appreciations in my heart for her i.e Irene in this case. She is Courageous in this walk.. She is very optimistic hardworking and even gave me hopes in life... She helped me realise who I was though intelligent but a fool to some things...I became wise.... I learned much. I can now stand for my family....I am now a father of a son JOHN two years old now. What a privilege !!!
I think I should make the best out of the just after school start turning a son to a man of character like I have grown..
I am glad I have you Irene I don't know what I can say...
I have just written this as a remainder of every thought I had what I programme on my computer one day as you usually told me it will be my day and yours too...we shall live in happiness.
Just imagine loneliness is eating me up daily here I miss home I miss to be with you... I miss to see you soon I miss to have your warmth around me but the long distance learning keeps me off but love draws me close everyday.... But may be for a good reason maybe my time is coming .. .I will wait...
I was not sure if I could have gotten married I had poor mentality about ladies I did not even want to be associated with them....
But thank God for Irene she gave me an awakening call...hey, James its not supposed to be that way you need a smarty to even improve you ...I accepted to give Irene a chance I my life...
I messed up again...she got pregnant..( Recalling two years now since she gave birth) hardships long way were coming.... Waaaah I thought of her ....she was now ready to abandon me in the relationship but for the love of the infant I gave her comfort and she accepted me back...
This lead to my early marriage just to save her from life struggles I invited her to stay at home in my small room....Hardships come and Go but she still firm Its James surely if not wrong to say she was meant for me... No that serious vows like they do in church during marriage but we endure hardships together ready to move on... But I had to leave for school its now two years still studying, No much time to spend with her...But to cut the story short she still waiting for me to complete its now just two semesters but ready almost one ending this one ends in dec 22 then one semester will be left...
God willing complete my course in year 2018.... May God show me where to fish....Irene, you hsge been lonely but am coming... Wait for i know after this our life will be happy together... Life has really taught us....
I love you Irene
I love my son john
Take care of him you take care of me and thanks for your kindness...one day it shall be our day...
I won't regret having you in my life even this early age... Its not a mistake you got a responsibility let's go together it's time.......you're here by purpose
Mwaaaaah mwaaaah love you and miss you here dear
Written while in Mombasa in my room for long peroid of thoughts on my life with Irene Kagendo... A well able woman ..
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