Faith is not the absence of struggle, but the practice of perseverance through it. It involves trusting in a higher purpose while taking practical steps forward, finding strength in vulnerability, and holding onto hope as a disciplined act. It is achieved through daily surrender, courageous action, and the quiet conviction that your current chapter is not the whole story.
Acknowledging the struggle
Honoring your present reality without letting it define your future.
✔ Name your pain and exhaustion without shame—"My arm hurts, I am tired, I have nothing in my pockets"
✔ Recognize the dignity in your effort—preparing the ground, washing, contributing what you can
✔ See borrowed help as community in action, not personal failure
✔ Write down your worries to separate them from your identity
✔ Thank your body for its labor, even as it aches
Practicing practical faith
Pairing spiritual trust with tangible, immediate steps.
✔ Break your larger hope—"a good position"—into one next, small, actionable step
✔ When online loans fail, see it as protection, not rejection
✔ Honor your contribution, however small, as an act of faith in itself
✔ Use your current skills (preparation, labor, persistence) as a foundation to build upon
✔ Share your need clearly, as you did with Njeri, and allow others to be part of your story
Cultivating resilient hope
Nurturing a belief in the future that is rooted in daily perseverance.
✔ Declare your intention daily: "I won't GIVE UP on WHAT I BELIEVE"
✔ Separate your circumstances from your identity—you are not your empty pockets
✔ Let your "strong faith" be a verb: act as if the breakthrough is on its way
✔ Find one evidence of provision each day, no matter how small
✔ Protect your hope by limiting time spent in worry; designate a "trust hour" instead
Building a foundation
Using your current reality as the raw material for your future stability.
✔ List the strengths this struggle is building in you: endurance, humility, resourcefulness
✔ See your search for work not as desperation, but as strategic movement
✔ Let each "no" (loan, opportunity) redirect you toward a better "yes"
✔ Invest in relationships, like the one with Njeri, as your true net worth
✔ Plan your move not as an escape, but as a purposeful step toward stewardship
Embracing the process
Finding meaning and growth in the journey itself, not just the destination.
✔ View this diary entry as a testament to your resilience, to be read later in strength
✔ Recognize that faith is often forged in the nights when you cannot lift the plate
✔ Trust that your preparation—slashing grass, serving—is building character unseen
✔ Allow this season to deepen your empathy for others in similar battles
✔ Believe that your story is being written with purpose, and this is a powerful chapter
Moving forward in trust
Taking the next step, however small, anchored in the belief you will be met.
✔ Tomorrow, do one thing that assumes a better future—polish your shoes, update your CV
✔ Thank Ndung'u for the credit, and let it remind you that trust exists in the community
✔ Let the pain in your arm be a reminder not of limitation, but of your commitment
✔ Speak your hopes aloud, as you did here, to give them weight and wings
✔ Close each day with this truth: "I HAVE STRONG FAITH IN HIM"—and in the person He is building you to be.
